It's been a while

So what have I been doing? I had a bit of a blip for a couple of weeks but I kicked my arse down to the swimming pool, Zumba, thighs bums and tums, aqua fit plus my dog gets at least 1.5 hours of exercise every day:) I've not weighed myself in a while because I become obsessed with what the scales say, I'm going to leave it until the end of April:) as for food, what's food? I eat it when I need to, I truly believe that this is one of the best things I've done for myself in years, it comes second to leaving the ex husband!

So anyone out there keep going, set yourself goals, small ones to start with and then build up from there, Rome wasn't built in a day and you didn't get fat in a day either, one things for sure when I go on holiday this year I am not going to be hiding under a towel!

Enjoy Easter - and yes I will be having a Percy pig from m&s but I will share it and no doubt burn it off with exercise!

Feeling Good...........

Losing weight is no fast thing, you cant wave a magic wand and its gone or nobody would be fat. However I'm finding this pretty easy, its great when you train your mind not to think about food all the time, thats the difference between having the hypno-band and slimming clubs, I often go read the threads on facebooks slimming world page, this is just because im nosey, "ive piled my plate high just like the club says, yet im not losing weight, why?" everything has calories in whether its carrots or beans so if you eat more calories than you burn its not going to happen, its pretty much common sense really!

Ive lost a stone now, thats six weeks and a stone gone, you have to realise although I was overweight and still am Im not obese, or not fat,fat if you understand what I mean, so my weight loss is nice and steady.

I saw someone yesterday that ive not seen since christmas or before and I got a nice greeting "by heck lass, whats happened to you, you have lost weight" so thats what has made me feel good, ive worked hard and now im starting to see the results, id like to loose around another 10 lbs and I will no matter how long it takes I will do this because I know I can! I had all my hair cut off yesterday because im changing I wanted a change, simple!

Have a nice weekend everyone, because I'm going to!

Ive not given up

In fact im working even harder to acheive that goal, that only me can do - ive just been busy busy busy and not thinking about food as much - just me in that bikini lol

Im still losing weight, thats a healthy weight loss - but more important I've started excercising:)
It helps that my 14 year old son has jumped on the band wagon and doing it with me as he is a little overweight for his height etc, a little observation while he was eating his dinner today I heard him put his fork down and say "mum im full now" so if he can gain good eating habits at this age then hopefully obesity will not be a problem later in life, ive even noticed him running thetap and drinking water instead of juice, I don't tell him what he can and cannot eat I want him to be able to make good choices for himself just like I do.

This morning we were both up nice and early and we walked to the pool, yep walked in the snow and both swam a mile, we were counting down together, encouraging each other it was a good team effort. After the swimming we went to the supermarket and then we went to the gym for an hour, I really wish they would let the teenagers do the deep water aqua because I know he would enjoy it, but instead he can watch me and then we will both do length swimming and hopefully crack up a mile again.

I really feel good about myself this weekend, its not always so positive, last week I had a "down" moment, but I went to see Stella and we chatted about how well I'd done so far and if I wanted to keep on losing then I needed to carry on for myself, its not the food part that gets to me - I no longer have a problem making good choices I think I just expect too much in too little time so a little patience on my part isnt going to hurt.

Talk about making good choices, A pupil of mine wanted to do the McDonalds drive through, normally if I was having a mcdonalds it would be a big mac, large fries, coke and an apple pie to finish with, I had a chicken burger and nothing else this is because I did want to eat something but I know that if id have had anymore I would have been stuffed and I hate that feeling so I was able to control myself pretty well I would say!

Woop woop......

Yesterday was my youngest sons birthday, Alfie was 11, for his birthday treat he had a friend sleep over and I took them to Doncaster Dome, we went swimming and then ice skating, I can ice skate but I find that the skates kill my feet so I didnt skate for long and sat out, while I was sat down I could see the vending machine, full of delights or were they? Peanut butter chunky kitkat, I was slightly hungry, but I ran it through my head, if I have one then I will have to pay the consequence when I go on holiday hid under the towel, so I got some chewing gum out and played on my phone instead, the thoughts soon passed.

On our way home we called at Meadow Hall, even though I'm told this isnt on my way home! The boys wanted a KFC, KFC are good because they list the calories, I couldnt get anything for under around 1000 calories so that was not an option, so I went to a spud place and asked for jacket potatoe with beans, the chap serving was about to plonk some butter on, so I said no to that, but the size of the potatoe was massive and overfaced me before I started, I managed around half of it and then it went in the bin, I can leave food now when Im full instead of putting waste fat into my body.

I called in at Next because I wanted some new trousers, I pulled of a size 12 and went to try them on, they didnt fall of me but were big, a month ago I would have squeezed into them, so I went back and got a 10, anticipation filled me as I went to try them on, yep I could pull them over my thighs and fasten every button, they were a bit tight but not uncomfy, I reckon another half a stone off and they will be an "easy fit", remember Im only 4ft 10 so a size 10 is not small! So because ive been turning away food that makes me big ive started to reap the rewards instead of taking the consequences, its alot nicer to have positive things than to feel negative, so as a new week starts I shall remain positive and look forward to the next drop a dress size!

The Operation

The only time I've been in hospital was to have my 3 children, I've been a few times as an outpatient, but I've never so much had stitches or a broken bone - lucky really after the way my ex used to use me as a punch bag when he was under the influence.

So yesterday was d-day, I can honestly say that this last week has been a lot easier than the first, I have not felt hungry and had no cravings for any bad foods, this morning while I was out walking the dog I walked past the sandwich shop and could smell the bacon and it didn't make me feel starving I just thought "urgh that's not for me", whereas normally that would make me feel starving.

I got tonstella's place and the sofa had been made into a bed nice and comfy, after our initial talk about my weight loss so far (8lbs) and how I had felt about food this week we got down to business, it doesn't take long to get me into a deep state of relaxation, I might have said this before but I'm easy money, sometimes we have pupils who pick up this driving malarkey so easy and others that take longer, although I enjoy all pupils the ones that pick it up easy I would call them easy money and that's how I am, when I was training for this job I was "easy money" lol.

Once Stella knew I was in a deep relaxation state my mind was taken to the surgeons office where he went through the procedure of the operation and assured me that every thing would be ok, I was then taken to another room when I had to put on a gown, I was laid on a trolley and a needle was put in my hand for the anaesthetic and I was given something to drink that made me woozy.

Please remember I was woozy so I can't remember everything in detail like I did last week, the next thing was the soft music suddenly stopped and I could hear the clattering of tools, voices and could smell that hospital smell:( the operation was performed and I was assured that everything had gone fine. Now the tennis ball that I had been holding throughout this operation i was made to squeeze because this is now the size of my stomach, if I think I maybe hungry then I need to squeeze my tennis ball! I was told that I would no longer eat any crap food, I would eat 3 small meals a day and I would not snack between meals, eat until I'm satisfied and throw the waste away.

I need to eat to live not live to eat, it's perfect common sense.

Afterwards we agrees that 1/2 stone off in the next 4 weeks would be a good goal for me because I'm not like stones and stones overweight I think I've got about 19lbs to loose now - I also promised or maybe a "try my best" not to weigh myself for 2 weeks when I go back for the band tightening.

It's not a scary experience but I do believe I had my fist clinched the whole way through and Stella confirmed this.

When I came out and checked my phone Steve had sent me a text, yep after 5 years I finally got him texting "what time you home babes?" my reply "about 20 minutes but I've just had an operation sons nice hot bath would be nice".

My stomach actually felt tight and does while I write this, I'm under no illusion that this is some quick fix, because it isn't, but what I'm sure of is by the spring/summertime I won't have that disgusting look I gave myself when I went to next to try some clothes on the other week, I also know that like with slimming clubs I've always struggled because I have wanted the naughty foods and pigged out on free foods - I'm not going to have this feeling anymore, come on no food is free what your body doesn't use it turns it to fat, apart from celery Which you actually use more calories eating but then it tastes disgusting - for now I'm going for good taste over quantity!

Off to listen to my cd now so hope you have enjoyed reading and don't forget to share my blog!

Credit where credit is due.............

I didn't want to mention the name of the lady who has been helping me on my path to my new success, only because I don't think its fair to name someone on a public page unless they agree to it - so I asked yesterday and she agreed that it would be ok for me to do so:) So the lady who has been my therepist so far is Stella Hutson who is a proper licensed practitioner for the Hypno-Band, be careful people out there because like driving instructors there are fakes out there, but like me Stella has the certificates to prove it, so anyone wanting to get rid of the body fat and fit into that bikini this summer then contact Stella at www.simplychanged.me or contact her on 0754 005 8121, Stella doesnt just help fatties, but if you want to stop smoking then she can help, or maybe you need help with nerves or anything that you want to change in your life - Stella is your woman!

Changes are coming.........

Well peeps its two weeks ago on Tuesday when I first started this fantastic journey to making myself happy, yep thats it I'm doing this for MYSELF, decided to become selfish lol.

On saturday I went out with my friend for our girlie day, we do this every other week when my boys go to their dads, the Mr is at football. It normally consists of us doing some shopping, maybe a bit of pampering then we go for lunch somewhere, I didnt want today to be any different although I knew I wouldnt be coming back with the sunday lunch syndrome today which would make me feel better.

So off we went to the Harvester, I ordered a pint of water with ice, half roasted chicken, new potatoes without butter and peas. At the harvester you get free salad bowl, I was very thoughtful on what I put in my bowl, mainly, shredded carrot, cucumber, beetroot, 1 half new potatoe with mayo and tiny weeny bit of coleslaw. So we sat down and I slowly ate away at my salad and my mate looked at me and said "your stuffed" I wasnt stuffed but satisfied, then I thought of my main course and what I was going to do, so when it arrived I ate a few peas and a couple of the new potatoes, called the waiter over and said "can you box that up please im not feeling well today" you see I had 2 choices, I could have eaten it and felt the sunday lunch syndrome over fed my body with waste food that would just turn to fat, or just leave it as waste which wouldnt harm my body, I had control over it and I felt proud of myself for been in control. Afterwards my friend said "I dont think we will be going out for a meal again" "I said why?" "well your paying for something your not eating", "that doesnt matter at least its not waste on my body and I enjoy the company", so in two weeks time we will go out again for lunch and I will remain in control. Its the taste of the food I like, not the quantity!

Tomorrow is the day I have the band fitted, bring it on! Now whats for tea?